In an hour dark, and a moment sad.

The Apostle Paul said "when I am weak I am strong." It's a tougher message when you read it in context.

2 Cor 12:7-10
7 And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. 8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Well I am feeling very weak. I'm tired of being embattled. Tired of weakness in my walk. Tired of asking to be restored yet again. Tired of needing escape from the traps and nets set by the enemy's minions and my own failings. Tired of not being on the front lines needing nothing more than revelation and provision for the war. I'm tired of having to remind myself that I need to forgive people even if they don't deserve it. I'm tired of having so much I want to do but being distracted by flaming arrows bombarding my family. I guess with all this tiredness one might say I'm weary.

Jesus said.

Mat 11:28-30
28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Would you pray with me that I would enter into that rest. I know I need to stop being my own protection. I need to lay down the sword of my own might. I know these things. Yet it is a vicious circle I'm walking in these days. Exhausted from the fight, which makes me so vulnerable that my defenses are going up instead of letting my faith be a shield.